You Are In Charge of Your Destiny!
The lowest point of my life came when I lost my sight. I felt that in the process I lost my hopes, my dreams, and my future. I was truly lost. Imagine being 17 years old, at the prime of your youth, and everything you thought your life would be is no longer possible. I wanted to play basketball professionally. I wanted to have a better life than the one I grew up living. Depression set in. Thoughts of harming myself came and went. What will my life be as a blind man?
In order to overcome blindness, I had to draw on my past experiences of abuse, neglect, and hardship. If I could overcome being physically, emotionally, and mentally abused by the person who should have been protecting me, then what is blindness? Just another obstacle. Once I got passed the emotional devastation of losing my sight, I was able to approach my new life from a logical perspective. I drew on my memory of what life was like when I had my sight. I made sure that my mannerisms, my walk, and my way of speaking stayed the same. This helped me regain a sense of normalcy. I was fortunate to have my eyesight for 17 years, I had no excuse to continue living my life. Especially once I was introduced to music.
Music Saved My Life
When I first heard my voice over an instrumental, I was hooked. Growing up listening to Tupac, Biggie, Ja Rule, Eminem, and 50 Cent I could only dream of making a song. Being able to put MY cd in a car and bump MY music was amazing to me. From that moment on, I spent hours writing lyrics in my head. Reciting my rhymes, punch lines, and executing my delivery in preparation of going to the studio. The last thing I wanted was to cause the recording session to last longer because of my mistakes. I experimented with different styles. I studied rappers that came before me and those who were currently on the radio. This helped develop my writing skill as well my ability to deliver my rhymes. I wanted to make sure I had no excuses when it game to my music.
This brings me to my current situation. I’m performing in front of crowds of people and seen as a hero. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would become the biggest blind rapper in the industry. What I did to cope with the loss of my sight, has allowed me to positively impact the lives of others. It warms my heart when I’m approached by a blind child and they tell me I’m their idol. I remember the first time this happened to me. I remember thinking “whoa.” I can’t believe the way my life has turned around.
From growing up in a tough environment, to inspiring others with my remarkable story is truly unbelievable. Imagine if I would’ve decided to give up and live my life depressed after losing my sight. Imagine if I would’ve decided to go to sleep as oppose to staying up countless nights browsing the internet (thanks SIRI) and listening to industry professionals provide an insight into the music business. Imagine if I would’ve decided to stay in Evansville, IN and never moved to Miami to purse my dreams.
No Excuse is Worth Quitting Over
I was given so many excuses to justify whatever pitfalls or failures I would face in life. But I decided that instead of using my misfortunes to feel pity for myself, I’m going to use them to become the powerful man I am today. I am grateful for all the things I experienced as a kid, because I wouldn’t be who I am today. I don’t hate my mom for what she did to me and if she was still alive I would thank her. Because her inability to provide me with a stable childhood, allowed me to become strong-willed and determined to not fail. So don’t complain about what you don’t have. Find a way to live the life that you’ve dreamed for yourself. Because without dreams, we are nothing more than the cows that spend their lives grazing in the pasture. Live your life with no excuses.